Stop struggling with him

One sure thing I know is that it does no good to struggle with the Holy Spirit. I have tried it numerous times and it did not work nada. When it comes to literally doing God’s work, Let me not lie, I can be a bit of a Jonah sometimes.

The only difference is that I always find my way to where God is leading me to before the big fish swallows me up. Lol. God is faithful. Sometimes a warning dream comes from God, letting me know his mind showing and makes me realize that I am treading on thin ice.

I spent years dillydallying around instead of heeding God’s call into the Ministry. I just did not want to do it. It seemed like so much wahala. I wanted to arrive Church at past 9am(2 hours after the service starts) and leave immediately service was over like most people. I didn’t want to be accountable to anybody, I didn’t want to be in charge of anything or face attacks from the kingdom of darkness, I didn’t want anybody to know me, nor the added responsibility. I attend Mfm, and I knew the implications of taking a leadership role. What they usually ignore from a member will not be tolerated from a leader.

Then one day I had a dream. God gave me something in the dream but I said I didn’t want because of noise. Then a black goat appeared and took it and I ran after it. You see my life?  I didn’t want it and I didn’t want the goat to run away with it. I woke up puzzled, and scared. I knew exactly what God was saying but I ignored it.


Eventually, I joined a group in church. A very easy group. All I needed to do was sweep and clean the church once a week. I felt very smart with myself. Until, I had another dream. Simple dream, ” Go and join the teaching department because of ……….”

You needed to see my face  after I woke up. It was a straight instruction and I knew enough not to disobey. I obeyed outwardly but I had a lot of questions and doubts in my heart. “Why teaching of all departments, what do I know to even teach, me sef I still need teacher etc?”. That I was shy didn’t help matters. I have always hated talking in public,  how much more teaching people and having them look at me with rapt attention? Lol.

But God knew what he was doing. Physical teaching has helped me to be able to express myself better when writing. Teaching birthed two Christian blogs for me. It gave me clarity of purpose and took me down the path that led to this blog.

Of course I wanted to hide myself in the teaching Dept.

I didn’t want anyone to know where I worked or that I was a lawyer. It didn’t happen that way. Once the screening committee knew that I was a lawyer, most of the other teachers knew. The head teacher took a liking to me and monitored me. He made me the registrar and put me in charge of Certificates. Imagine! I had to interact with everybody. I couldn’t miss prayer meetings or run away from vigils. I was like Ooooooooooh! But I secretly enjoyed it. He was a mentor and helped me find my feet.

Along the line, I started having dreams showing me what I was supposed to do. I had another warning dream, and a demon wanted to take my Bible because it needed changing and I refused to change it and I was struggling with the demon. I realized I had to sit up, follow the path of inspiration, evangelizing, motivation and teaching that he had laid out for me.

Now, this post isn’t just for me alone, I was led to write all these for that person whom God had called into Ministry. I don’t know the specific area but he/ she knows that God wants them to work for him. Don’t waste as much time as I did. Be like my Sister or Frances , people I admire because they took up the mantle and sprinted with it.

I dillydallied and all I can do is apologize to God for always hesitating and procrastinating.

I won’t lie to you, It won’t be easy , Satan will put doubts and fear into your mind, but God will see you through. He has a way of anointing you with what you will need to do his work. You may feel ordinary now, but God will anoint you to do extra ordinary work.

Stop struggling with him my friend, let us come together to do God’s work. You may not know what it is exactly, but start from somewhere. Even I don’t know fully where this path is taking me. But I have surrendered.

There are lives attached to your life. There are destinies attached to yours. Some people will never know Christ if you don’t do God’s work. There’s work to be done, and God will call someone else if we remain stubborn. You don’t want to be that person who refused God’s call.

Pls feel free to contact me via email I will reply asap, and call you if you include your phone number.

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    December 29, 2016 at 6:03 am

    I get in here and see the new blog design and I’m like yesss!!
    Then I read the post and I’m just filled with gratitude to God for you.
    You have said the best yes every human can ever say. You have said YES to working for God – nothing could be fulfilling.
    Thanks for encouraging others to do same.
    There are destinies attached to yours – so true!
    God bless you sis.

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      December 29, 2016 at 11:53 am

      My dear! Me sef I am doing Yessssss! Lol.
      Thank you dear. You have seen some of the metamorphosis yourself through the other blogs. We thank God.
      True! Nothing could be more fulfilling. I spent almost five years running and wishing the cup will pass over. But it didnt. So I better embrace it happily and get on the destiny train.
      Thank you Precious for all your encouragement and push. God bless you.

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    December 29, 2016 at 12:45 pm

    My sister, the truth is most people who actually love to work in God’s presence/vineyard initially were reluctant to heed that voice. My friend was telling me about he finally served as UNCLE during his NYSC in Ogun state. He didnt understand the Bible at all. Didnt know Bible verses. Didnt even know most words when singing some choruses, but he was chosen among those who actually were very active in their university days and worked in one department or the other.

    He was shocked too because according to him, those people who weren’t chosen for that exalted position as secretary of Nigerian Christian Corpers fellowship, NCCF, were better than him in all ramifications but why they chose him baffled him so much.

    But he eventually took up the post and did his best to which he glad later after the one year program. He started knowing the word, bought a bible for the first time in his life at age 29..

    When God calls you, if you like do gra gra, you go eventually heed to it.

    Nice article. Happy new year in advance

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      December 31, 2016 at 10:49 am

      Waoh! Nice story. You are correct. Brenda.thanks for the insight. And I am glad for your friend. I wasn’t even born again during my Nysc, plus I redeployed home so I didn’t involve myself in any fellowship matters. Lol.
      Thank God for your friend. Better late than never. I can imagine the faces of those who felt they were better “qualified” when he was chosen instead of them. They forget that God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called. And as my church bestie said one time when we were talking about my shyness (I am paraphrasing ) he doesn’t call the qualified because they may become proud, take the glory and think it’s out of their own power or might.

      Yes oh! They will eventually heed after initial gra gra. The few who remain stubborn or heed after God finds someone else, live to regret it.
      Thanks Babe. Happy new year in advance to you too.

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